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15 Mar 2008 8:06 AM

After 34 years of marriage I find myself today living with my elderly parents who are helping me heal.  I tried so darn hard .. I became so ill ... cardiac units, panic attacks, extreme sadness. Those melting moments of defeat and failure .... my doctors told me to gather strength and do something .... and FINALLY I am free of aggression and emotional torture .. well nearly!
Today .. only 8 weeks after my brave move with just my clothes ... I see my home sold and me letting go of everything that WAS my life. 
My friends will never know their worth  ... dragging me from the depths of sadness and entrapment to now a state of an open and free mind where I can think more clearly, smile and speak openly about my feelings .. BUT
I cannot visualise myself anywhere .. I don't have a home .. and  don't know where tomorrow shall take me .. am hoping that in time this will all come to me.
They say a door will open when one is slamed shut so I guess if I stay open to the universe and have no expectations .. things just might present themselves to me and fall into place.
I am not a person to say "I want" but one thing I have realised so strongly is to know what I "don't want"...
I feel the morning breeze... I look out to the morning sky and smile ... because I feel at peace.
My vision of Cherie in one year from now?  .. Just haven't got a clue!

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