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31 Jul 2008 1:57 AM

Good morning on this end of the world.....

    I read my mail this morning and could not believe what I had read." How could she say that", I thought to myself, even out loud once or twice.
    Then I remembered back and realized that is how I had felt, more than once or twice I'll tell ya ! I didn't like the feeling, no one does. I must do something about this I realised and do something quickly. I can't stand feeling like this or her feeling like that. What to do? Hurry, hurry, let me think what to write. Oh phooey !!
    I must water, I soooooo need to water. My poor plants are so thirsty I imagine, I KNOW they are. It has been hot and so humid. I must not take the time now to do this as bad as I want to .... I must go water, there is no getting out of that. Plus the humidity. I overslept this morning and if I don't get outside early the humidity gets so bad it's difficult for me to breathe. Can't put it off, it's already after 10 AM.
    I am watering, not the casual way of watering that I enjoy so much. A bit for the lawn, a bit for the flower pot. All the time I am thinking what will I say, how will I say it. I think of different words of kindness to use. I muse these things over and over in my mind. I feel sincere, how can I relay that, that I really do care ?
    OK, through with the back, now off to the front. Maybe I'll have better thoughts in the front yard, change of micro climate or scenery or something. Different magnetic field as the scientists would make note of. Still thinking of what and how to say what I want to convey to her.
    While I'm watering the wilting 'mum', my only one, I think of you again. NOT because she is wilting, but because she is the only one in my garden. She doesn't get a lot of notice because she doesn't bloom ALL the time. But let me tell you something....When that 'mum' does bloom ... she is absolutely spectacular. The palest chartruess green you have ever seen. Just gorgeous in bloom. Then she is the only thing in bloom and the attention is all hers, the glory is hers. She then has my full attention, as you do now Cathrynn.....
    HOW could you ever think you didn't belong ? You were not considered a friend of importance also ? You know I did have a bunch of names, and took off because of that reason, I couldn't go back and forth to get all and couldn't think of so many . Plus I remember how bad it hurt my feelings if there was a list and I was not on it or don't get credit for "whatever".
    No more for me. We are all capable of standing alone, even though we don't know how yet or want to. We can learn to come together as friends or... walk alone once in a while for the peace of it. Like the tide pool, ebb and flow.
    Well I grew out of that. I am not part of any group. I am myself and very capable of standing on my own. I don't need to be on lists, or belong to groups...although I do know exactly what you mean, I do understand. Some days we do feel a bit down anyway, through no fault of anyone else either. It is all a growing process. Next day is better, happier.
    So Cathrynn the comment you left on the other blog, I am sorry if you felt hurt or left out....I have been thinking of you for over two hours now and this is the best and quickest I could come up with for now. This one is dedicated just to you, I consider you a friend indeed and love all the contributions you have to offer. Your sense of humor is grand and your values are spot on in my book.
    Just you watch and see everyone will always have wonderful things to say about you and to you.
    Now I really need to get busy and I truly wish you well and give little Bess a hug and a pat for me. You take care of yourself and don't you ever feel left out. There is no need, you are a very wholesome part of this group, and I for one enjoy your gifts, comments and wit. You take care now and smile, for you are a woman of value and great worth, to yourself and to me. ( To all of us, to the world !). I, for one, am proud to call you friend.

Edit: Hey folks how about just give Cathrynn a quick nice comment on one of her blogs, she may or may not read this, so just give her an extra boost. didn't mean for this to get so long....simple idea gone wild...(*_*)....hugs
yes those are some of my relatives in photo...old photo
   

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