Conflict of Soul - By Doreen Jones

In South Africa, when one had big gardening projects to do-it was possible to hire convicts from the prison authorities to do the work.

A gang of ten prisoners with a warder would march from the prison at approximately eight o’clock in the morning, and work till four o’clock in the afternoon. For this, we paid ten shillings a day.
The prisoners would all be dressed alike, in white canvas shorts and shirts. The Warder would be in semi-military uniform. He was armed with an assegai-or spear-sharpened to a point-quite useless, really, to defend himself, or anyone else, but it was a badge of authority!
Two prisoners would carry food-in large cans- We had a very steep section to our house, and wanted it terraced, so we hired a gang for a week.
Absolom, the warder, came and told me they had arrived, found out where the nearest tap and toilet were, told me that under NO circumstances was I to talk to the convicts, offer them food,, cigarettes or money. In fact, I was to ignore them completely.
I showed him where we wanted the terraces to be built and went inside.

Each man had brought either a pick or a shovel. Absolom marked the places were the terrace's to be built, and they started work. I watched from my windows. Apparently they were allowed to stop work and have a drink from the tap, or to go to the toilet, but I noticed that Absolom watched very carefully, and if he thought they were slacking, or taking too long in the toilet, he would bang on the door with his assegai and shout, and they would almost FALL out! My soft heart was sore. At morning tea time I asked, “Could they not have a billy of tea?””NO!”, said Absolom.

It was hot, about thirty degrees. The convicts sweated and wiped their faces and I fretted more and more! After about three days, you can imagine my feelings. By this time, Absolom had relented sufficiently towards me so that he would speak to me. I asked, “Did he HAVE to be so strict?”
He sighed, and said, :Madam, you do not understand!
Look, THAT one” pointing to one of them, “is a three time murderer”!- “That one”, pointing to another-is a rapist murderer”, and so on,through all ten of them. Then he said, “ALL of them are a disgrace to the Zulu nation-if I had my way, I would hang them all by the neck till they were dead!”
What could I say? I went indoors. On the Friday, I noticed one of them. He kept looking at the sky, and the trees of the Botanic Gardens just below us. In his language-I asked, “Why do you look so?” the answer. “I am storing it up in my mind to last me over Saturday and Sunday when I will not be able to see any of it”.

I wanted to weep. Our garden was finished, and they marched back to jail, but from then till now I have conflict in my soul.

Which is the better way?

A death for a death-or jail and hard labor?